Thursday and Friday were hard. Thursday we made the decision to have our Scout (Doberman) put to sleep because we couldn’t control his cancer pain. We waited four hours for the Vet to come on Friday. Not because they were late, but because we wake up early and our appointment was for 9:00.
Scout took “the path home.” I really recommend The Path Home Vet Care. They were amazing and made the process as nice as it could be. I held Scout in the sun as they did their jobs. Then, Dr. Scott, and his wife, asked to pray with us. He recited his company’s namesake, Psalm 16:11 “You will make known to me the path of life.”
Today I ran trail and thought of the hundreds of miles Scout and I had run together. Him, always circling back and checking on me. He was always by my side; both on trail and at home. Such a dear, dear friend. To have Dr. Scott to the house was so hard. I used the quote below, the bottom sentence specifically, to force myself to get through Scout’s end of life.
@tbbpodcast posted this quote:
THAT FEELING OF DISCOMFORT
IT’S A SIGN THAT IT’S TIME TO GROW.
TO LEVEL UP.
TO SHIFT TOWARDS SOMETHING B I G G E R
LEAN. THE. FUCK. IN.
Ending on a positive note. Today, the sun was trickling through the trees shining on my trail, I have his sparkly name tag in my running vest and I heard it jingling often. I am getting comfortable being uncomfortable (it is a yoga philosophy). I plan to finish my first Ultra in Scout’s memory next month.